Post-op.....

So, I had my operation last thursday.....and thing are really strange/crap/long/upsetting since...

It was pretty painful...still is...I'm abit tender and bruised...and I feel so lonely and isolated cos I cant go out and my favourite people in the whole entire universe are either abroad or are in a house with ill people and babies....and I miss them....and it hurts....

yer, I've just had a really bad day....

I've never really been a big fan of christmas anyway, well ever since I was about 13 which is a long time....
there have always been bad things happen around christmas and this year I can do anything....
I couldnt even finish my christmas dinner 'eat little but often' and now ive got lumps and bumps growing inside me!!! (thats sounds sooooooo wrong and...just strange.....)

So yer....but I'm still trying to be optimistic....but I did break down earlier, went 4 a walk and its a complicated and upsetting and everything just seems crappy...........

BLA!

I just wish it was next week cos at least....yer...next week will just hopefully be alot better....