There HAS to be more than this?!?!

I just cant really explain how i feel, i do feel just completely hopeless.
i duno where my confidence has disappeared to in the past 42 hours?!
I just duno what to do...its like im stuck, theres nothing i can do...and there just has to be more to life than this....i just feel like i exist and thats about it...i want to do more than exist, i want to mean something....to someone, to everyone, i just want things to be different.
i dont want to feel like im just floating around this world doing the same thing just on a different day, cos today i just felt just like that...just like i was floating around, just doing my part, just doing whats wanted of me...what about what i want...

WHY am i at a standstill?!
i want things to move forward.

i feel like ive taken one step forward and 2 steps back.....just with everything, my life has just been me taking one step forward and two back...

i just want to keep stepping forward